Motherhood changed her in ways she never expected — through love, loss, and learning to soften into herself again. This is a story of grief, resilience, and rediscovering joy in the quiet moments. A journey of becoming, one breath at a time.
THEN
Becoming a mother was the chapter that changed everything — not just once, but again and again.
Between welcoming her first baby and preparing for her second, she walked through the heartbreak of losing two babies. It was a season marked by grief, survival, and learning how to keep moving forward when life no longer looked the way she imagined. For five years, antidepressants helped her navigate the weight of it all. And then, slowly, gently, she made the decision to wean off them.
Almost twelve months on, she describes it as a fog lifting.
Her clarity is returning. Her memory. Her sense of self. She’s reconnecting with joy — laughing with her children, rediscovering playfulness, and learning to parent in a softer, more present way. Not by becoming someone new, but by remembering who she has always been.
In the early days, motherhood felt overwhelming. She felt lost, unsure, and disconnected from the woman she once was. It took years to realise the truth she now holds with certainty:
Motherhood didn’t erase her — it transformed her.
Her the woman and her the mother were never separate identities. They were always one and the same.
Motherhood simply reshaped her into a deeper, fuller version of herself.
Today, she sees the qualities that carried her through even the most uncertain moments:
love, determination, strength, resilience, playfulness, the ability to let go — and a growing acceptance of both who she was and who she is still becoming.
NOW
In this season of her life, she is learning to accept past versions of herself without guilt, shame, or heaviness. Instead of carrying them as burdens, she allows them to be part of her story — honoured, acknowledged, and integrated.
When she reflects on her journey, resilience and strength continue to rise to the surface, alongside clearer boundaries that now guide her forward.
The practices that help her feel most herself are simple and grounding: meditation and journaling (even when they come and go), sitting quietly by the ocean, beach days with her children, and leaning into both the online and in-person communities she is building during this new chapter of growth.
When she imagines her future self, she sees a woman who is calm, grounded, and present. A woman confident in her softness. A woman deeply connected to what matters most.
She trusts herself now.
She leads with love.
She honours the slow, steady rhythm of life.
And perhaps most beautifully — she can see that these qualities were always within her.
Wholeness, once measured by doing and achieving, now feels entirely different. It lives in slowing down.
In space to breathe. In quiet moments. In nature. In time with family. Less about productivity, more about presence. Less about becoming more, more about being enough.
HER WISDOM TO YOU
The belief that continues to guide her is simple and powerful:
I am strong. I am abundant.
And to any woman walking a similar path, she offers this:
You’re not alone. So many women have walked this road, even if they don’t speak about it openly. The days may feel long, but the years are short.
Cherish what you can, allow yourself grace for what you can’t, and trust that brighter days are coming.
She is proud of how far she has come — not because the journey was easy, but because she kept going. And now, she is learning to honour every chapter, even the heavy ones, because they shaped the woman she stands as today.
-E
